If you could be someone else for a day, who would you be, and why?

Daily writing prompt
If you could be someone else for a day, who would you be, and why?

If you could be someone else for a day, who would you be, and why?

My instant response was – I would be a billionaire, names don’t matter, then transfer a couple of million to myself, then back out of the alternate persona for another day, and there I would be – rich and happy, my old self once more. Then I started thinking – ‘billionaires don’t do things like that’ – then I really started thinking. How much of my alternate persona would I take over? Would I be myself in another body? Or would I be that person, privileged, hard, caring only for myself and my fortune, sparing nobody as I strove for my ultimate desire, the Noah’s Ark of a bunker that would protect me from the oncoming disaster that I was myself encouraging to happen? Enough, I said to myself. That’s not for me.

I thought about it during the night, in those elusive moments between waking and sleeping, that half-sleep contained in the Spanish duermivela. And then the light bulb flashed and I knew who I would be.

I have always wanted to visit Australia. The cost, the length of the flight, the rigors of the journey, the fear of DVT, have all prevented me from making that voyage – quite simply a flight too far. But what if I could be my cousin Frances, in Sydney, for a day? I have never met most of her family, and this would be a wonderful chance for me to do so. I would see her husband, George, in close-up. Also her four children, two of whom I have never seen except in photos. I could also meet their partners, and the grand-children, and all of that merely by waking up in another body on another continent. If I timed it right, I might even manage to visit the Sydney Opera House and see the harbour bridge, or catch a test match, or a rugby international – the red lights are flashing – overload – overload – overload -!!! Too much – too greedy – KISS – Keep It Simple Stupid – !!!

Seeing the family, experiencing her daily life, looking at her garden, so beautiful in the photos, maybe even sinking my fingers into that rich earth, that would be more than enough. Ayer’s Rock – Uruburu – Alice Springs, the Fremantle Doctor, my cousins in Perth and Bundaburg, they will have to wait. Sydney and my closest family, that will be more than enough.

But how much will I retain upon my return? How much will I remember? And what will happen to Frances? Will she become me and be forced to suffer our Canadian winter, for a day, while I rejoice in her Australian summer? So many questions.

Too many questions. Maybe I’ll just be myself, after all, as Oscar Wilde says “Be yourself. Everybody else is taken.” I’ll just be myself and to the above offer I will reply: “Thanks, but no thanks. I just want to be me.”

You’re writing your autobiography. What’s your opening sentence?

Daily writing prompt
You’re writing your autobiography. What’s your opening sentence?

You’re writing your autobiography. What’s your opening sentence?

The End.

Why did I write that? Because I like reading T. S. Eliot – Four Quartets – “In my beginning is my end.” If that statement be true, then, ipso facto, The End must be my first sentence, because that’s my beginning. Eliot converted to Catholicism – and, according to the Jesuits, “The end justifies the means” – so, when we start with the end we are justifying the writing (the means) of all that led us there.

You don’t like my logic, you say? Why not? It is as straight as the corkscrew I hold in my hand when I am threatening to add the contents of a bottle of wine to my autobiography. Is a bottle’s end in it’s beginning? Of course it is. If you don’t open the bottle, you can’t finish it. If you don’t start it, you cannot end it, so in the beginning lies the end.

Oh the mysteries of mysticism, those truths that know no logic and follow no known paths from their beginning (via purgativa), through their middle (via iluminativa), to their end (via unitiva). Or is life and truth a circle that has no end? In which case wherever I begin the circle of my autobiography, there too is my end.

In my end is my beginning and in my beginning is my end.

Mors omnia solvit.
The End.

What are three objects you couldn’t live without?

Daily writing prompt
What are three objects you couldn’t live without?

What are three objects you couldn’t live without?

Oh this is so easy and so obvious. Every verb needs a subject and most verbs need an object. Can you imagine living a life in which no verb has an object? Indescribable. And how about an indirect object? Or a direct or indirect object pronoun? And now let us move on to the object of a preposition…

Wow! And now I must choose three out of those five? What are you trying to do to me? This is so cruel. It’s why I always fail IQ tests – there are so many answers that do not fit the desired paradigm of the programmers who set the questions and the appropriate answers. Are we all to be programmed then? And who shall program the programmers?

Or do you wish me to choose three inanimate things? If you did, you should say so in a clear and understandable fashion. An inkwell? A quill? A piece of paper? Salt or sand to scatter on wet ink? How many people out there remember post office pens, also called scratch pens, also called dip pens? There was a time when life without such objects was unthinkable.

And why stop at objects? What would life be without subjects?

Oscar Wilde once stated he could make a pun about any subject. A voice came out from the audience “Queen Victoria”. “The Queen, sir,” bellowed Oscar, “is not a subject.”

“Oh, Oscar,” I said to him, “I wish I had said that.” “You will, Roger,” he replied. “You will.”

And I just did.

Who are your favorite people to be around?

Daily writing prompt
Who are your favorite people to be around?

Who are your favorite people to be around?

Creatives – because creative people need support in their creativity and need to believe in themselves and in their creations. I wrote two days ago about Rejections and Silence – while both are needed by creatives – rejections to help perfect and polish – and silence in which to create – too many rejections and too much silence can result in alienation, depression, and the suppression of creative acts.

“We few, we happy few, we band of siblings!” Not quite what Harry said before the Battle of Agincourt, yet can we, the readers, be absolutely certain that what Shakespeare said he said was actually what he said? But we share the spirit of creativity with creators big and small, famous, infamous, and struggling. That is why we need to band together, to support each other, and to ensure that creativity isn’t killed by the straitjacket of a nine to five job, or longer, or the multi-employment that has become so necessary just to survive in our diminished and diminishing world.

“What is this life if, full of care, we have no time to stand and stare?” wrote W. H. Davies, one of the great Welsh poets. And he concluded this poem with a parallel couplet: “A sad life this, if full of care, we have no time to stand and stare.”

I hope you like the painting that heads this prompt that is turning into a joyous rant. It is by one of my creative friends, the poet-painter Moo. He calls it Spotted Coppers and he painted it last night after watching the Midsomer Murders episode that dealt with the theft of valuable Spotted Copper Butterflies. Intertextuality – one text leads to another, and the butterfly becomes a TV episode becomes a painting by a friend becomes a rant prompted by my computer and written by me.

That is the circle of creativity and it blends into the circle of friendships, and creative artists are both competitors and friends, for “whether creativity survives or no, I’m sure is only touch and go.” Another line that another great Welsh poet, this time Dylan Thomas of Swansea, might almost have said.

So, who are my favorite people to be around? Creative people, of course, with all their passions, energy, warts, flaws, and their constant need of encouragement and support.

A Masked Ball

Masked Ball

After a two-week lay-off, the Dance of Colors returns. What caused the lay-off? Absolutely nothing. I grew tired of posting, of writing, of throwing my paint on the waters of the web and waiting to see what, if anything, happened. Well – nothing happened.

Steven King, On Writing, says “Paper your walls with rejections.” And I have done, pages and pages of them. The secret is ‘never surrender’ – ‘never give up’ – or, in the language of the WWII Prisoner of War Camps – Nil carborundum illegitimi. You can Google the meaning, if you can’t read Latin. It is a euphemism for ‘never despair’.

Rejection is one thing. Silence is something else. When I check my notebooks I find submissions, some sent several years ago, that are still unanswered. There is simply no response. It is as if the writer – submitter – does not exist, is not even worthy of a form letter.

I ran into that wall of silence during this two week lay-off. Does it matter? Probably not. The creation of art is as much a monologue as it is a dialogue. Bakhtin calls it ‘a creative artist’s dialogue with his time and place.’ I think of it as ‘this creative artist’s monologue with his time and place.’

Footsteps – I leave them here, I leave them there, you can find those footsteps anywhere. But beware the footsteps left on the beach at low tide. You will not find them on the beach the day after you leave them. The tide will have risen and washed them all away. In spite of that, some footprints are here to stay.

Happy Giving Birth Day!

Happy Giving Birth day!

It was our daughter’s birthday today. I have lost count how many, and luckily, so has she. She lives 1500 kms away and was unable to come home for a celebration. We celebrated on the telephone. So much better than nothing.

I wanted to have a proper celebration, and so did my beloved, her mother. We bought special foods, special wines, sat at the table … in spite of the sparkle and the candles, something was missing. And it wasn’t just our daughter.

“Okay,” I said. “Let’s make this a very special day. It’s just you and me. Let’s make it your Happy Giving Birth Day. After all, there were two of you involved and I think you deserve some credit.”

So here we are – as of now February 4 is Happy Giving Birth Day. It is open to all mothers. And each of you can celebrate it on the day you gave birth to your babies. Some of them do not wish to acknowledge how old they are … [don’t ask!].

But you, the unacknowledged for so long party, you can finally stand up, centre stage, and say “YES, this is also my day! It is my Happy Giving Birth Day!”

It doesn’t have to be on February 4, as my beloved’s is. It is on the day it happened, when it happened, and you know exactly when that is.

I don’t know you, but permit me to embrace you, and allow me to welcome you to the Happy Giving Birth Day Club. May you enjoy your achievement(s) for ever.

Hope Springs Eternal

Hope Springs Eternal

And it does, as you can see from today’s painting. Well, last night’s really. I left it drying overnight and this morning it was almost ready. Not even signed as yet. Oh dear. Still, I lay claim to it. And it’s definitely my style, with a few neat little changes. A change of palette, too. And manner of application.

“Paper your wall with rejections.” This is what Stephen King tells me to do. And I do just that. More rejections, and even more. Yet still I submit my poems and stories, and till they come back, rejected. Mainly form letters – but with an occasional helpful nudge like. “Nice writing. Not for me / us. Try somewhere else.” It used to get me down, but I am now so used to the negative that it is just water off a duck’s back. Splish, splash, and so what.

What really ruffles my feathers is the submissions that fall into the deep pit of silence. Not even a rejection slip with which to paper my walls. Not that I can do much with an e-rejection anyway. And I refuse to waste paper by printing them out and papering.

Still, who knows? One of these days, somebody may say “yes – we love it, and we’ll publish it.” As they say, “Hope springs eternal.” Maybe it does. But my time is beginning to run out.

Aliens

Aliens

We know they are out there – but do we realize that they already exist within our own heads? They float around inside our skulls, sending out alien signals and outlandish messages. Buy more, crave more, consume more, eat it all up, leave nothing on your plate, don’t give anything to anyone else, it’s yours all yours, don’t share, be greedy, mine, mine, mine. And we cry “Mine” until we undermine our own society and then the aliens have taken us over and they are in full control and wielding total power.

Search for yourself amidst the ruins of your consumer life and your life consumed. Dig deep into the troubled mine of your mind and rescue what remains. Perform an act of artificial respiration upon yourself and create yourself anew, in the image of what you want to be, not what the aliens want you to be. Be brave. Kick them out. Win back your own life. Resist them. Fight them on the beaches, in the bleachers, on the non-stop radio, on the endless subliminal messages cast out by the tv.

Reject the false notion, the siren song that calls out endlessly – ‘j’achete, donc je suis‘ – “I buy, therefore I am.” You are more, so much more, than the purchasing power of your dwindling dollars. Breathe deep. Walk out in the sun and the rain. Be yourself. Make friends with others of like mind. Fight those aliens, wherever you find them. Fight back. Renew yourself. And renew the world around you.

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